Bye Bye Plane Ticket -- Hellooooooo Vodka.

So someone presented me with an amazingly ingenious opportunity and it was so close to being reality that I felt like I could hold it in my hands. The damned thing slipped through my fingers and now I'm sitting here, typing this out, wondering what the fuck happened. Okay, I know the answer to that question. Adulthood happened to me. Having responsibilities happened to me. Rather than explaining it to you readers, I'll post three conversations that I had immediately afterward just so you can experience it without all of the fancy wording.

First conversation on MSN Messenger:
(Tina logs on)
Just Jessica says:
*tantrum*

Tina says:
What, Mike isn't going to be on this weekend?

Just Jessica says:
...someone offered to pay for me to go surprise him in Alaska

Tina says:
Yeah?

Just Jessica says:
AND I COULDN'T ASK OFF OF WORK.
G'DAMNIT SON OF A ASKLJDGFKSJGF!

(That is keyboard striking for you online illiterates out there)


Tina says:
like they wouldn't let you off work?

Just Jessica says:
There's too much going on for me to go

Tina says:
=(
you should make Aria enter ze gas station so we can rp and shiz

Just Jessica says:
I'm too psychoticly pissed off to play Aria. She's too sweet and I want to kill something right now.
I'd be better off playing my neurotic character ...who is inconveniently dead right now.

Tina says:
XD
I like evil

(Tina and I frequently role play online, so I apologize if you do not understand our character references.)

Second conversation on Skype:

[10:12:02 PM] Jessica Rolin: Guess what just happened to me.

[10:12:06 PM] Amber: what?

[10:13:33 PM] Jessica Rolin: I'll tell it as if it happened to you.

[10:13:57 PM] Jessica Rolin: Let's say I come up and tell you, "Hey, I'll pay for a plane ticket for you to go see Matt in two days."

[10:14:00 PM] Jessica Rolin: Would you shit your pants?

[10:14:09 PM] Amber: yes

[10:14:33 PM] Amber: but that would never happen to me

[10:14:43 PM] Jessica Rolin: Well Shelby came to me and said that

[10:14:48 PM] Jessica Rolin: And I'm working all next week

[10:14:52 PM] Jessica Rolin: SO I FUCKING CAN'T GO

[10:14:55 PM] Amber: woooow

[10:15:05 PM] Amber: thats nice of her

[10:15:29 PM] Amber: so your not going?

[10:17:23 PM] Jessica Rolin: I can't!

[10:17:33 PM] Amber: awwwe

[10:17:46 PM] Jessica Rolin: I am freaking out so much internally right now that I wouldn't be surprised if I started menstruating again.

[10:17:47 PM] Jessica Rolin: My body would do that. Just to spite me.

[10:17:59 PM] Jessica Rolin: Someone out there has it out for me

[10:18:31 PM] Amber: im sorry love

[10:19:29 PM] Jessica Rolin: I'm going to brood in a corner right now.

[10:19:31 PM] Jessica Rolin: Brb.


And the cherry on top final remark on Facebook:
Shelby: Dude, you're really raining on my parade here.
Jessica: Well someone is shitting on mine.


To answer your question: yes, when I am miserable I feel the need to make my rounds around the internet telling EVERYONE, even complete strangers on forums. This does not involve the phone calls I made either. Have a good night everyone. Going to jump out of my window now. *hick*